A letter to LIFE… and good riddance to Year 2010

Listen here, LIFE.

I’m not sure where we got off on the wrong foot this year, but enough is enough already. I’ll admit you’ve put up a good fight. You’ve dealt some pretty impressive blows over that last twelve months. But today was the last straw. With two short days left in the year, could you just take it easy please? Just simmer down alright?

That blizzard you pulled out today was pretty crazy to say the least. I commend you for your efforts. You didn’t waste any time showing me you meant business. At the not so bright, but very early hour of 6:30am that Semi truck stunt took me by surprise. I was particularly impressed when the massive truck practically ran me off the freeway with the tidal wave of slush and ice, while simultaneously hydroplaning my tires toward the cement barrier. It made for an exciting morning. But I made it past that hurdle and forged on. Thinking you had done your worst for the day, you surprised me yet again on my way home from work by turning the road into a swirling river of snow and my usual 10 minute commute into an hour. Despite my careful and snail paced driving, you still managed a fender bender within a half mile from home and safety. And after all that, to add insult to injury, you just had to throw in that last insurmountable snow bank.

You really pulled out some big guns today. And you may have squeezed out a few more tears, but what’s a few drops to the ocean you’ve extracted before?

With all you’ve dragged me through this year, haven’t you learned that you can’t keep me down? It’s gonna take more than a measly blizzard to push me over the edge. Sure, you’ve knocked me down HARD several times, but I always get up. Even through all those months of indescribable pain and darkness, I pulled through.

You’ve put me through a LOT, but I get the point, alright? You’re tough. You’re demanding. You are completely unbearable at times. You are extremely painful. Yea, I got all that. But I also know you are beautiful, even more than I can comprehend. How about we see a bit more of that side, huh?

You’ve been an incredible teacher this year. I’ve learned more than I ever wanted to about heartbreak, darkness and depression, abandonment, selfishness, jealously, disappointment, and PAIN. Most of all I understand pain. BUT… it is this same pain that has opened up a place inside me to receive more love, beauty, loyalty and true friendship, and more PEACE than I ever thought possible. It has definitely been a year of extremes.

Good riddance 2010. And LIFE, you better have some ridiculously awesome junk around the corner for me in 2011. You must admit it’s time. However, if you choose to deal out some more of those “lessons” you seem to be so fond of… I am absolutely ready. And I have you to thank for that. In other words… BRING IT.

Yours truly.

-C

Blogging Singledom Dilemma

When I first created my blog years ago, I, as many people do, struggled with wondering what I would write about as a single person. To me, blogs seemed like a married person thing. Blog about your cute husband. Blog about your adorable children. Blog about your new house. Blah blah blog blog blog. What was I to blog about? "Today I went to school." "Today I went to the gym..." "I ate another bowl of cereal."
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Obviously I got over that, because I am blogging. Can't say it's much more interesting than the above examples... but hey, that's all I got and I'm not ashamed.

However, I have run into another blogging dilemma. This is it...
As a single person who dates, I find myself being less single at times if you know what I mean. And so... how do I introduce you readers to this new significant part of my life? This is my dilemma. Dating is so fickle. One day you're dating someone. Next day maybe you're not. And what do I tell you.... "Hey world, I have a boyfriend!" "Oh... ok. Just kidding. Not anymore." No. I don't like that. So, do I just start slowing phasing him into my blogging world? Referring to him as if you already know him? Just start posting pics so then you think, "hmm... who is that stranger with Colette?" "Are they dating? Is that her cousin?" And then when/if it ends what do I tell you? Do I just stop referring to him? Stop posting pics? Delete any posts I mentioned him in? Oh dear oh dear...
Do you see my predicament here? Obviously I have thought WAY too much about this. Apparently, my solution to this problem has been to just NOT blog for months on end... and then to write an ambiguous blog post about how I didn't know how to write about this.

And so dear void, this is my way of telling you, ah... yeah. Ooh... why is this so hard for me? (Maybe it has to do with the fact that I HATE the word 'boyfriend.' It makes me feel like I'm 12 years old) Ok, here goes... Maybe if I whisper it'll be easier. I'm dating someone! Aah. There, it's done. Happy now? All you curious people.
I figured after 4 months of this nonsense it was time. Not that I'm forecasting anything about the future of my relationship status by posting this, either way, because I am NOT, so don't even try to read into it. STOP it. Right now... I know you're doing it.
Wow, I'm a spaz. But I'm making progress. Maybe in another 4 months I'll tell you his name.